A Letter to My Sister, Viktoria

My dearest little sister,
My sweet, gentle, hilarious, one-of-a-kind little sister, I miss you so much. My heart is forever broken to have you gone so unbearably soon. Life will never, ever be the same without you. You were my twin and I am so grateful that I was able to be your sister and to have your sparky, beautiful soul in my life for the past 22 years. I love you more than the amount of stars than there are in the galaxy and then some. You always loved space, and now you can finally explore all of the cosmic realms you’ve ever dreamed of seeing. Every time I look into the night sky I see you and I think of you, and I will for the rest of my life and beyond.

Thank you for making me laugh so hard I couldn’t breathe. Thank you for sending me the creepiest bug photos even when I begged for you not to. Thank you for sending me the strangest videos I have ever seen on the internet. Thank you for forgiving me after playing war ended with a block to the forehead. Thank you for being excited to be in school at the same time as me. Thank you for giving me my minecraft name of 63LittlePiggy63 that has allowed me to make some of the most incredible friends I’ve ever had. Thank you for the hundreds of video games that we played and finished together.

I’ll miss you having to use the bathroom every 20 minutes on our family vacations. I’ll miss your endless, endless amount of knowledge. I’ll miss you calling me your least favorite vegetable. I’ll miss your strange, random noises and perfectly scrunched faces. I’ll miss your giant round head and incredible curly hair. I’ll miss walking into our favorite bookstore and seeing you at work, leading people to their new favorite book. I’ll miss your memes and strange game recommendations. I miss you so much, my sweet other half.

You have always been a curious soul. You always wanted to try and experience every single thing that this planet has to offer, and you tried as many things as you could in the life you were given. I will take this part of you with me throughout the rest of my life. You made life exciting and new, every single day, and I will stay curious and tell you all of the stories that I will come across as I go. I miss you so, so much.

I am so sorry that you were in so much pain. I am so sorry that you felt like this was the only way to escape it. I am so sorry that you felt as though you deserved to leave this life early. You did not. You were an angel among us and forever will be. We forgive you, and love you more than words can ever describe.

I speak for all of your family, all of your siblings, all of your parents, grandparents, cousins, nieces, and friends when I say that we all wish you were here, and that we could hug you close one last time. I know you are up in the realms having the time of your life, and I am so happy for you. I wish you had more time on Earth with us, but I also know that this life was incredibly hard on you. I hope you are at complete peace and completely full of only joy now. The universe has called you back, our sweet little alien. We can’t wait to reunite soon. ❤

I love you to infinity and beyond and back and then some, always and forever, my best little sister. ❤

Rachel

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